Wow. 3 months.
I can’t freaking believe it.
Sometimes, in the middle of the night, with a baby screaming her head off, 3 months seemed so very far away.
Now, looking back, it’s flown.
I’ve been back to work for a few days now and it’s crazy how some things are exactly the same, yet some things are so different from 3 months ago!
This is a tough one. I’ve always been a pretty level-headed, reasonable, responsible person, yet these last few months have taken me on an emotional, hormonal roller coaster that seems to never end. And, just when I say to myself “OK, I’m starting to feel like my old self again”, something changes and we start all over.
I’m more emotional about going back to work then I expected. I’m terrified that I’m going to miss her milestones and have to learn about her development through daycare reports. I feel frustrated with my post-baby body and the slow trek back to ‘normal’.
So, I guess the report is SNAFU.
Looking back, I think I’m feeling A LOT better then those early days. Traveling with her definitely built my confidence and that helped substantially to make me feel more ‘in control’ about motherhood. But, we are at a time of rapid growth and change, so I’m working on adjusting as quickly as she is changing!
Here’s the thing.
My abs are rock hard.
And, not in a 6 pack sort of way.
More in a “my uterus is a swollen bitch” sort of way.
I think the best description is that my body is stalled at about the 3-4 months pregnant point. Everything that fit me into the early weeks of my second trimester, fits me now. Anything that fit perfectly pre-pregnancy is not appropriate for public consumption. Spanx are a staple for my work clothes. Body parts that felt flabby and lumpy pre-pregnancy, feel flabbier and lumpier now.
So, we’ve got a ways to go.
But, let’s be honest. I had a ways to go before I got pregnant!
My goal for the month is just to survive. I’m returning to work and starting a new routine entirely. I’ll do my best to fit in exercise whenever I can, and I’ll make healthy choices whenever I can… but, I’m probably going to need a glass of wine or two to help me through.
I’m ~2lbs from my pre-pregnancy weight (this varies by day!), so it’s more a toning/redistribution/uterus issue.
Here are some photos for comparison sake:
This is a really tough part of the whole ‘healthy’ puzzle.
I will admit that this has been the last thing on my mind lately. And, I’ve got the highs/lows to prove it.
I think getting into a regular routine with work/daycare will help greatly. It’s been more a ‘grab and go’ lately for meals, which makes it hard to count and manage carbs/insulin appropriately.
I also have to admit, that after the INTENSE management of the pregnancy, that I’ve swung in the exact opposite direction. As much for mental health then anything. It was very difficult to maintain the control that I had to maintain over 9 months (and the year before to get ‘permission’!) and I’ve gone a little wild, crazy and carefree.
Time to rein it in. And, I will. I’m getting to the point of frustrated with myself, so that’s usually the point where I get control and get things back in order.
Moving on to a much more exciting topic!
Maddie is doing fabulously. She had a 3 month check-up and here were her stats:
Weight: 11lbs 6oz (Birth: 7lbs. 15oz)
Height: 23.75″ (Birth: 19.75″)
Head: 39.4cm (Birth: 34.5cm)
She’s cooing, giggling, smiling. She’s not afraid to let us know when we don’t do things up to her standards.
She’s eating 5-6oz per feeding and sleeping from 7:30pm-5am (with a brief feeding at 10:30ish! Dream feeding, if you will).
She’s wearing 3-6 month clothing and 60cm in Hanna Andersson.
And, she’s just plain amazing, fun and keeps on our toes every. single. day.
That’s all I’ve got for now!
We’ll see what the next month brings!